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12/30/2003 : 4:31 p.m.
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Now Playing: The Movielife-Jamestown

Things are going incredibly...well...different.

I haven't felt so goddamn lost in my entire life.

I'm jobless, loveless and almost friendless. I've succeeded in pushing almost everyone away.

I'm such a mess anymore, and I don't know how to fix everything. I'll be sad for one part of the day, so miserable I think about leaving and starting over somewhere else. But then all of the sudden I'll completely turn around and be happy.

I always knew I had clinical depression, but I'm wondering if this is deeper. I know a few manic-depressive people and when they haven't taken their meds, this is what they act like. How I'm acting.

I'm taking a hiatus from diaryland for a while. Not like anyone reads this anyway.

/end

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